At the moment...this is MY FAVOURITE SONG!! yes, yes...it was sung by Taufik Batisah! Woohoo! So...here it is:

This Is The Moment
(Jekyll and Hyde Soundtrack)

JEKYLL: This is the moment!
This is the day,
When I send all my doubts and demons
On their way!

Every endeavor,
I have made - ever -
Is coming into play,
Is here and now - today!

This is the moment,
This is the time,
When the momentum and the moment
Are in rhyme!

Give me this moment -
This precious chance -
I'll gather up my past
And make some sense at last!

This is the moment,
When all I've done -
All the dreaming,
Scheming and screaming,
Become one!

This is the day -
See it sparkle and shine,
When all I've lived for
Becomes mine!

For all these years,
I've faced the world alone,
And now the time has come
To prove to them
I've made it on my own!

This is the moment -
My final test -
Destiny beckoned,
I never reckoned,
Second Best!

I won't look down,
I must not fall!
This is the moment,
The sweetest moment of them all!

This is the moment!
Damn all the odds!
This day, or never,
I'll sit forever
With the gods!

When I look back,
I will always recall,
Moment for moment,
This was the moment,
The greatest moment
Of them all!

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Hahaha...ook...I know it's LATE...but i can't sleep right now and so i've decided to write everything that happened today...:D
It's been a GREAT day! About 16 of us met at about 11.30, but as usual, we weren't on time and we finally began at about 12.30...we managed to cover about 7 houses (if i'm not mistaken...) The first stop was Azhar's house...hahaha..the guys were all busy playing X-Box...
The second house was...Zalena's house...there, Aishah called to tell us something about Taufik...which i better not say...well...what comes next was VERY ugly....ALL of us...now TOTALLY despise the school...not to mention...THE PRINCIPAL!!! Thanx ALOT miss tham--NOT! We were so looking forward to seeing those TWO guys!!
Haiz...but i guess it was not meant to be...DAMNIT!!
Well...then we carried on with the rest of the houses...I think Hanis's house was next...we ate noodles there! YUM!
Then was Liana's house...where the guys created HAVOC there....Some guys were playing FIFA i think in the room...and some others were playing soccer out in the living room...and broke one of liana's vases or something...YIKES! hahahaha :D
Then we went to Iman's house...where i got to play with 7 kittens!! plus a mother cat!! SOOO CUTE!!! Hasloon was allergic so i couldn't bring the cats or kittens out of their cages...hahaha...
Then we went to Fadhirul's catalog-looking house...hahaha..TOTALLY awesome....lots of antique stuff...
We visited Iryantee's house next (even though she couldn't come with us today...)
And then we stopped to play some fireworks (sparkles...whatever la) before going home...long...hectic...tired day....nevertheless...i had FUN!!!


All The Guys...

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From Left: Azhar, Fadhirul, Zalena, Hanis, Nasloon, Hayati, Me, Fairuz, Liana 
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Me and Liana :D 
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Topic: Why I HATE Tagboards!!

Okay, firstly...i do not hate ALL tagboards...i love doodleboard (cheers khaymar!)...just SOME tagboards are ANNOYING!!

What exactly is the purpose of a tagboard:
Positive Reasons
1) Communicate
2) To make the blog look friendly (really?)

Negative Reasons (whereby people abuse the tagboards...i'm not saying about anybody in particular)
1) Tell people they're...er...less likeable (HATED would be too harsh...now now...)
2) Vandalise the blog (for this, you have to insult, use vulgarities and verbally abuse)

So...back to why it IRRITATES me so much...
1) Knowing what time and date you've tagged is PLAIN LAME!! (besides...who wants to know that you've been skipping school to tag at 10am or that you have insomnia and couldn't sleep)
2) There are weird pop-ups that clogs the screen everytime you post (no trouble for doodleboard though...)
3) It's just useless because there's a thing called MSN
4) Tagging means that what you say is NOT PRIVATE (may be an advantage for some cases...hahaha...get what i mean?)
5) You can't DELETE anything you say...which SUCKS!!! BIG TIME!!


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Today's Topic (with no puns whatsoever intended): Why Good Is Sometimes Bad

Yes...yes...everybody's been through it...EVERYONE...should we be good to avoid the bad? or should we be bad so that the good can shine? Happens in every occasion possible...in family...relationships..even...friends...
No...I'm not affliating on anything in particular (sometimes i'm doubting whether i should be good with my entries as well)...

Being good...what are the advantages:
1) No guilt conscious
2) Happiness
3) Nobody hates you...(or so you think...)
4) Nothing bad will come out of it (again...or so you think)

But we question ourselves...is being good worth it? Should we always have to bend our heads down and step back? are we being made use or taken advantage of? are we being truthful to ourselves? is there room to actually disagree or say no? well...obviously...these questions bring disadvantages:
1) Are you really happy?
2) Are you being too good?
3) What are the odds that you have not been used?
4) Are you going to be made use of in future?
5) Do you think you'll make everyone else happy by not having an opinion of yourself?

True...it's always safer to be good...more friends that agree with you...you don't get in trouble and have to deal with sticky situations...but...there'll always be a scenario whereby you have to be bad...to be good...
Let's say: You're a friend of Person...er...B...and you think B needs a change...in whatever area...and you long to tell B the truth...but you're keeping it to yourself...why?
1) You don't want to hurt B's feelings
2) After hurting B...you're afraid of losing B as your friend
3) After not befriending B, you're afraid B will hate you...
Isn't that right?

But by being Good...you're not doing anything to be better:
1) B wouldn't know B's mistakes
2) B will continue making the same mistakes...and you'll be more miserable
3) You're making B learn the mistakes the hard way (which sucks even more)

Well...let's see this in a different perspective...
By not telling B...you'll have to tolerate somemore of the 'imperfect' B...besides...maybe others see what you see that's wrong in B...you'll be helping on the behalf of some people when you tell B...and if B won't understand this...but in the process of hurting B or whatever, you're HELPING B by becoming a better person...a person that would one day be accepted and liked again by other people...including yourself...it's a win/win situation...both parties are happy...you'll feel good about yourself...B will feel good too...because B will come to realise that B has become a better person...

Of course...nothing will go smoothly...DO expect arguments..conflicts even...but people grow and move on...all you have to do...is play your part and move on...every second that's gone...is already the past...all you can do now..is pray and work for a better future...therefore...adjustments and improvisations had to be made...
I've learnt from MY own mistakes from MY friends since primary school...and i hope that all of you would too because NOBODY'S PERFECT...

Fell asleep before 10:48 PM

Don't Tell Me You're Sorry
By: S Club 8 (not S Club 7)

You took me up, drew me in
Like a moth into your flame
Put your jinx in a deadly kiss
Your body locked me down in chains.
Didn't read the danger signs
'Til you crept into my mind
Made me believe you were so in love
I was mesmerized.

Fell Down to earth now baby
I heard my wake up call
You're not a high I can't get off.

[Chorus]
Too little too late girl
Didn't know what you had 'til it's gone
(Don't tell me you're sorry now)
Too little too late girl
Can't back what's already lost
Now you're alone

I still see your reflection in
A corner of my head
You're the tainted mirror image
That my heart has to reject
So I've gotta keep my distance
When you tell me you can change
You can't burn me
With the heat of your love
Cos I've put it in the shade

[Bridge]
Nothing you can do can phase me
Since I got my wake-up call
You can't do your damage like before

Can't turn back the clock
Can't make momentum stop
And every time I look at you
I hesitate
I get a trigger in my mind
That makes me rewind
And remember how you blew my heart away

Fell asleep before 10:39 PM

Firstly...
SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL MY FRIENDS OUT THERE WHO DO CELEBRATE THIS JOYFUL FESTIVAL AND MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN!

*I'm going to do this in malay...so excuse me...*
Ok...buat semue...apa khabar? amacam puasa? Besok Hari Raya dah siapkan kuih ke blom? Oklah...Khai menyusun jari meminta maaf jikalau khai telah menyinggung hati semue atau jikalau kata-kata khai terlalu kasar...:D sampai di sini sajalah...(khai tak tau ape lagi nak kate)...selamat hari raya aidilfitri!

Fell asleep before 8:43 PM

I TOTALLY HAD FUN TODAY!!! Seriously...and it was a VERY exciting shopping trip with khaymar! wohoo!! we should do this again soon woman!!
Anyway...well...we initially planned to go to the Expo to check out the book fair...but i was late (stupid bank had a VERY looong queue)...and Expo was like...how far la...so we decided to crash in Jurong East library...besides, khaymar had to return her library books :D we got some interesting magazines and went up to the teens section..ok...rewind a bit...well..i was like 'wow!' when i saw khaymar's nose stud! wohoo! 100% original! hahaha..then we sorta lazed around...khaymar asked someone for the bean bag (which the fella gave)...and this security guy...went up to her and asked her if she was sleeping! hahaha...but get this: he was talking to her in MALAY! ahahakz...
Then, we decided to tour around IMM to shop for my shoes...and we stopped by this embroidery shop...and bought iron-ons! hahaha...i'm still deciding on where to put mine...and again...this auntie...the person in the shop asked if khaymar was malay...ahahakz!! Then we checked out IMM...that place is BORING!!!! nothing there...zilch! Then khaymar's dad called and told us to meet him at kallang to bring us to expo...we were like...woo! hahaha...khaymar's mum came along...they look so cute together! like mother like daughter i guess! hehehe...then we went to Expo...and we found out that there was the John Little Warehouse Sale! Omigod!! We were ITCHING to run around the place! (ok...i'm exaggerating)
But we went to the book sale first...omigod! you wouldn't believe this: Harry Potter and Meg Cabot books at $5!!! hahaha...at first, we only got the All American Girl...but then khaymar spotted the Princess Diaries in someone's basket that was lying on the floor...hahaha...i covered up for her and she went to take the book from the basket...and we hurried off!! hahaha...finders keepers!
Then, we went off to the John Little Sale...which was like...what the hell la...HUGE!! BIG!! GIGANTIC!! HUMONGOUS!! (ok, you get the idea)...
Swimsuits at $5!! hahaha...khaymar bought this really simple but pretty dress for $12 i think...but it was worth it la! We wanted to shop somemore, but it was getting late and i had to break my fast soon...hahaha...well...we didn't find a place to eat in time...because of the freakin' queue at the cashier...but we managed to haul something from burger king!
And here's where the FUN starts...
Me and khaymar were in line for like...20 minutes i think...and it was finally our turn...OMIGOD!! THE GUY WHO WAS TAKING MY ORDER WAS SOOOOOOO CUTE!!! Beats any guy in school anytime!! his friend, who was working at the back...was EQUALLY ADORABLE!!
I was saying out my orders at top speed...and he was like 'sabar-sabar...slowly' and i had to repeat my orders...but we decided to have a little fun...let me introduce you to him first: his name is Muhd Apiz (now get my msn nick?)...i guess he couldn't key in my orders in time and the system sort of jammed up for 5 seconds...and i was like giggling...because he was saying 'sabar ar...blom buka lagik tau'...so i replied 'aku pon'...and then his friend (the other cute one) said something and i was smiling like one idiot la...but really ba...he looked so lost!
then he brought our orders...but forgot i said 'takeaway'...so he half-filled up the tray before khaymar said something (i'm really forgetful..so i'm sorry for giving you vague details)...i was soo amused! then there was this chinese guy khaymar thought was cute...so i was like 'this one?' and sort of nodded in his direction...the guy like paisey liddat...and i was like 'go hit on him la' hahaha...wakau! one BIG flirt session sia!!
Then khaymar said something about 'more chili sauce' and the guy was loading our bags with them...until i was like 'OKOK...ENOUGH!'...Then his friend laughed and i was like 'jangan ketawa...tak klakar!' (don't laugh...not funny)...hahaha...and our hands were brushing when he gave me back my change!!! eeek!!!! hahaha...and then on the way home...we counted out the chili sauce he gave us...like 'he loves me...he loves me not' that kinda thing...and it finished off as 'he loves me!!!' hahaha...like one pair of giggling freaks! he seemed to really enjoy his work though...the guy...i wonder if he's single...hahaha...
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Here's another everyday-related topic: PARENTS...
Yes...we see them everyday...we live with them for 15 years and so on so forth...
We get angry at them over issues...took their years of hardwork for granted...and yet...we love them...

I must admit, i sometimes do feel like i wished i had someone elses' parents...so..ok...let's count the faults parents have:
1) They are totally busy-body...constantly poking their noses in our business even though you've printed the word 'private' on your forehead..and they want to know what we do every waking hour!
2) They like to treat us like we do not know anything
3) They compare us to the straight A student next door
4) They HATE our fashion sense
5) They think our rooms are as messy as a pig sty (ok...so maybe this one is partly true)

How do we deal with this?
1) Well...we can't always yell at them to stay out of our lives ('cause let's face it: they're already in it)...but when they start rattling on about hormones and the birds and bees stuff...that we can do without. seriously, they can really underestimate everything we do...and i mean everything...from fashion sense to academic-wise...to even the kitchen and our bedroom!! everything we do is WRONG...well...that part we hate, but we can't blame our parents for doing their job...come on...sometimes we do want to be cuddled and all...after all...when we get into trouble, they will have to take the blame...tongues will start wagging and it wouldn't be about us...it's our parents who will bare the responsibility...

But sometimes, we DO want the FREEDOM!! The freedom to express ourselves through music (yea...my mum hates the punk rock that i blast through my speakers)...the freedom to dress (my mum thinks i should be more feminine...with frills and pink stuff and all...yuck!)...the freedom to prance around the room like nobody's business and make a mess out of things...the freedom to rollerblade at home (hahaha...marble flooring is the best surface to skate on)...the freedom to just feel good about ourselves without having to care about them breathing down our backs telling us that everything we do is never RIGHT...

This part of our parents: WE HATE...
But look at the side which we LOVE...

1) They make all our food with extra love
2) Although they wouldn't admit it...they secretly wish we do not need to grow up so fast (they want us to be kids where they can play with and tickle..aw...and...er...and maybe growing up is wasting their money...but let's pretend we don't know that)
3) They want us to have a good future (explains the nagging and stuff)
4) They will eventually get us what we want after we sulk (it won't look good on us too...but it works)
5) They've done so much to make us who we are today...and that's what's important...

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ok well...i feel a little bad about calling my mum budget...i didn't go out with my friends today...i went out with my family instead...(don't ask why)...since i'm a little bored...ook...i'm VERY bored, give me some room to blab nonsense for the next ten minutes or so (don't worry khaymar...this may be EDUCATIONAL...hahaha)...

so anyway...today's topic is on: FRIENDS
Why friends? well...since every teenage life revolves basically and mainly on this element. Everywhere we go...friends...everything we do...with friends...happiness comes from...friends...sadness...we go through with friends as well...

don't get me wrong here...i'm NOT a PERFECT friend myself...i have my ups and downs...and yes, i'll have to admit that it's not easy being a perfect friend where you want everyone to like you and you want everything to be as smooth as the ice-skating rink...but in reality...IT'S NOT...let's face it: with PMS and problems and stress, there are bound to be rocky patches in friendships...

There are a few kinds of friendship...1) Those that you'll never forget 2) Those that will come and go...eventually 3) Those that you wish you'll never be in
So...what causes all the friendships above? Seriously...FRIENDS...people like you and me...people that make things happen...

Well...for friendships that you will never forget...it's most likely the very best friend/s that you'll have or had...for example: primary school best friend...(truthfully, you mustn't have more than 3)...after spending 6 yrs (maybe less), it's impossible to shoo the person away...although there will definitely a possibility of the both of you being separated..look at the bright side! the further you guys are apart, the lesser quarrels you guys will have...and when you guys finally get together, you'll never run out of things to talk about!

Friendships that will come and go...usually will happen in secondary school life...for example...2 years together, then a change in class...a change in the circle of friends...and eventually...(sometimes this won't happen) maybe drift apart...2 years obviously isn't enough to really connect and bond with someone...

Friendships that you wish you'll never be in...you must be NUTS to be in here...really...is it even friendship if you're not having fun? Well then, wake up and smell the mocha! why are you in something you wish you're out of? Talk about uncertainty...which means you do not know what you want in a friendship! Firstly...friendship is built with trust, loyalty, care, happiness...and anything positive i can probably think of! Tick off what you think you don't have...if you do not have enough fingers to count what you DON'T have i a friendship...forget it!

So...how do you keep a friendship going? TALK, TALK, AND TALK!! talk to each other, open up...and express your feelings (i know it's difficult...believe me...i've tried it...and i stink!) but after a while, for example, after an argument or a fight...when you've found out the major factor causing such irrational problems, you might learn to spot your mistakes and change for the better...and hopefully improve on the friendship...but the major thing is not to give up totally...everything needs time and patience...DO NOT RUSH...LEARN TO LISTEN and most importantly...LEARN TO BE A FRIEND...because it takes ALOT of practice and dedication :D

Oh well...i think i've babbled enough...hahaha...too much anyway...hahaha...tag me!

Fell asleep before 10:17 PM

Oh man!! I just realised that my mum is VERY budget!!! Yikes! Listen to this: i'm supposed to go shopping for shoes + eat out for my break fast + top up my e-zlink all in $40 or less!!! Talk about thrifty...i mean...what did i do to deserve this??? *cries* i've done soo much for her! i've slorgged my butts off to get bloody satisfactory results and done household chores (believe me, i suck in hanging up the clothes and mopping and stuff)...and i spent hours painting doors! DOORS!! as in plural! and my mum used me as an excuse to buy HER shoes! hello?? i don't even want to look at those shoes! she just wants the shopping bag...it's pretty cute! but that beats the whole purpose...i mean...i should be rewarded!! come on la...i didn't ask for Chanel or Anna Sui or Versace or BMW...i just want a decent shopping spree!! i guess i can only do that after hari raya...been eyeing on some OP stuff...yipee!

Fell asleep before 10:13 PM

ook...so finally got the tagboard thing...go post!! hahaha...today i had fun! zalena, khaymar and sutha came over to my house to do the chemistry poster for open house...we managed to get some stuff done...but i had a stoooopid computer where i couldn't open zalena's file because i didn't (and still don't) have powerpoint and i couldn't open sutha's file because my cd drive is a mess! sheesh! but nevertheless...we managed a little bit...gonna continue tomorrow...a lot couldn't be done without shengwei (he's doing most of the stuff)...we listened to songs la...had a blast! tomorrow gonna be a busy day again! there's ss lesson at 10.30am to 1pm! have mercy on me!! then we're gonna slog our way through the poster thing and the PBL! on top of that...i haven't completed my a.maths!!! eh...must hand in tomorrow anot ar? or izit friday?

Fell asleep before 6:21 PM