My life is a total mess...it slopes up one side and down the other...i've been really mixed-up...thinking too much and then completely zoning out during lessons...it's driving me crazy!!
Anyway...thanx Sue...for helping me through all my rough patches...no matter how irritating i can be when i talk about er...stuff...hahakz...and the update...i'm not sure...i still dunno anything...my thoughts are so tangled...i can't think straight! remember this? "My head and my heart are always in conflict with each other"? Yeah....thanx for understanding...
So here's the deal: I can't tell him right now because he's sick...that poor guy...see la...told him not to smoke..he still smoke...and when he's sick..i can't expect him to call me can i? and er...i dun have his number...sheesh!
So anyway...at the moment...it's either a win/win or lose/lose.....i dunno...it's 51% lose/lose...seeing that you know what i'm like...Sue...how?? HELP!!
I can't talk to his cousin..let's face it...all forms of communcation is being snatched away...but you know about the forum i told you Sue? i think the people are right....i dunno how he's gonna be like in person...but i feel bad...
i dun want him to be thinking too much...and at the same time...i really want him around...you know what i mean? and the other guy...i dunno either (gosh i hope the both of them aren't reading this right now)...
It's killing me! why? I DUNNO!!
I miss the old times where everything's so simple and innocent...now...URGH!!
I envy people with amnesia...they get to live life twice...

"One should not go where one is not wanted..."

Fell asleep before 9:48 PM